July 8, 2013
Today’s New Moon is in the Nurturing and Motherly sign of Cancer. Cancer governs over our home, family and our early childhood conditioning. It is ruled by the Moon and is associated with our moods and feelings as well as our memories of the past. Mercury is close to this New Moon enabling us to communicate some of our feelings and emotions. This New Moon in Cancer also makes a quincunx to Juno in Aquarius requiring an adjustment or modification in the ways we give and receive support within our relationships. It may be that we can modify some of our own childhood conditioning and to create new and different types of relationships. We may also become aware of the adjustments we need to make in order for us to have some independence and an identity outside of our relationship, marriage and children. I think that the trine with Venus in Leo and Uranus in Aries further supports this. We have a need to be valued for our own special-ness along with our unique individuality. Venus in Leo is also quincunx Chiron in Pisces possibly suggesting that we may have been blind to our deepest wounds and to learn to appreciate our inner child and that may be the key to our healing and wholeness. Jupiter the Great Benefactor of the Universe has recently moved into Cancer on June 26 until mid-July 2014. This is a favorable position for Jupiter as it is supportive of our growth. We may be expanding or improving our home or families during this time. Look to your natal chart to find out where Jupiter in Cancer is for you personally. One of the things I’ve noticed since Jupiter entered Cancer is that a number of people that I know personally have recently moved or are planning to move soon. This New Moon should help to ‘kick off’ those energies. Also at the time of this New Moon, Saturn in Scorpio goes direct. He’s been retrograde since February 18th. Jupiter in Cancer, Saturn in Scorpio and Neptune in Pisces are moving into a Grand Water Trine, an easy flow of the water energies but more on that in a few days.
On a VERY personal note: About a week ago, we had some intense thunderstorms here. As I was running to my house from the car trying not to get soaked, the smell of the summer rain as I entered my house catapulted me into an early childhood memory. I was reminded of my grandparents’ house when I was a child. It was a place I loved to be and that I always felt comfortable and safe in. My grandparents were more like parents to me. I suddenly felt sadness with a mix of another feeling that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. All I know is that I wanted to cry. And I did for a brief moment. As I stood in my hallway somewhat surprised by my sudden emotional outburst, I realized what the unfamiliar feeling was. I was homesick. I suspect that the feeling was so alien to me because I had never had a real home. As a child, moving around was a regular occurrence and sometimes without any prior notice. I also never felt that sense of belonging to my family. I’ve never felt that I belonged with anyone until I had a child of my own. This little boy has taught me so much. In fact, I’ve learned much in this past year. Since I’ve started a family of my own, I had been struggling because I’ve never had a family model. I realized I didn’t know how to be a family. In my mind, I had this fantasy of what a family should be and because of that I felt that I was failing miserably. I was falling short on my own expectations and that made me depressed. It was one of those ‘aha’ moments and once I figured that out, I started to let go, forgive and recover. Awareness is key after all.
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